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Rosana Francescato's avatar

I love this honest look at a parent. I’ve been meaning to write about my father, who died in December, but have been overwhelmed dealing with my difficult mom. She’s much more difficult at 90 than she was before, though I think the seeds of her current behavior were always there. I find myself having a hard time remembering how she was when we were all younger. And while I have moments of compassion for her, that can get lost amid the stress she causes. Anyway I appreciate the love, compassion, and honesty of your memories. I love your final words with her and hers. There’s so much to unpack in our relationships with our parents, I hardly know where to begin. But you did a great job giving us a full portrait of your mother in a concise piece.

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Colleen Burns Durda's avatar

Christine,

This hit like an earthquake, complete with waves of aftershocks. First, I hear my oldest daughter's voice. I was the mentally ill mom, retreating to the bath tub when reality became too much to bear. Physically in the house with my kids, but emotionally and mentally gone. Second, I hear my mother, child of a woman with bipolar disorder long before the illness was even diagnosable. Finally, I hear my grandmother. She struggled with a superior yet uneducated intellect trapped inside psychosis.

Generations of women have paid the price of mental illness. Its effects on us and on our children. Your pain resonates throughout this piece. There, in the subtext, between the humor and recalling the mom you lived with.

Thank you for sharing this post. Be prepared for the grief to be nonlinear. Expect the grief for what might have been. It's all in there, waiting to be explored.

I'm so glad I found your Stack. You're a beautiful breath of fresh air.

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